Dearest Theodore

Dearest Theodore

By now you have met your lovely Grandi.   I am sure that he threw his arms around you and peppered you with a hundred kisses all over your face because he hasn’t been able to do that yet.  So it would be fitting even though you are 23 today. And then maybe...
Together

Together

I know all the “Sunday School” answers. (And I believe them as well.) I know God’s mercy and His strength – I know that he will sustain me and I know that he is good all the time. But mostly today,  I just feel really really sad.  And...
Leaving My Baby Behind

Leaving My Baby Behind

Motion all around as I step into his classroom.  So much excitement – so much enthusiasm. And I am leaving my baby behind.  All he wants to do is hug his teacher and get seated at his desk. Expectancy pierces the air – anticipation wraps its arms...
I Am Not Ready

I Am Not Ready

Days, weeks, months and even years soar by – boldly and unashamed – waiting for no one.  It’s almost cruel actually. Often I look at Sean who is seven and I have to pinch my arms and shake my head.  Where did those years go? How did he grow...
The Morning After

The Morning After

The morning after a large party I am always exhausted;  but it’s a good kind of exhaustion – the kind where you worked really hard and you were really successful.  So my back is stiff – my muscles are aching but my heart is full. I have a smile...
Happy Birthday, Jeremy!

Happy Birthday, Jeremy!

It is my husbands 50 birthday today.  When he woke up I asked him how it felt to be 50 and he said that it didn’t feel much differently than 49.  But I am a little bit anxious because I am coming up to my 50th birthday soon. Fifty seem like the age...